SUNDAY AND SADNESS

Good Morning and welcome to Sunday - a grey day in Adelaide with a very heavy sky holding the promise of rain. 

I wish to apologize for being missing in action over the past few days - they have been difficult days for me as I have come to terms with many issues.

I think that our whole world has been shaken - both in real terms and emotionally.  I think that world conditions have upset many people and altered their thinking and their reactions.

I cannot be responsible for another persons actions but I am and must be responsible for my reaction to their actions.

I have reacted to various issues which has caused dissent and sadness and I am sorry that my actions have caused pain to anyone, but I was doing what I believe and being true to myself.

"This above all: to thine own self be true,/And it must follow, as the night the day,/Thou cans't not be false to any man "

William Shakespeare - Hamlet.

Having said that I must now pick myself up, dust myself down and start all over again.  I must learn from the process and remember how I felt and how concerned I have been for others.

Life is dealing so many blows to so many people and at times it is hard to find joy in anything.   I find joy today that Ashley and Avery have a date to be out of Japan and will rejoice when they are home with family again.

I find joy in the fact that the new babies in my friend's lives are doing well.  Matilda and Lily seem to be thriving in the loving care of special families.

I relish the joys of friendship and will feel much happier when all my friends are more settled and back into routine.

Please know that you are loved and cared about and I hope the tremors you didn't see coming in your world soon stop and you can relax a little.

I value friends, who willingly pick me up and drive me to movies and dinner - and that's on the agenda this afternoon.   A film called "Unknown" with Liam Neeson - I know nothing about it - but it is out and if there is ice cream involved - count me in.

Sunrise is coming later each day and I am constantly in awe of the changing of the seasons.  The world turns and the seasons roll on from year to year.  Our days are cooler and no doubt soon the leaves will start to change colour and fall from the trees and the wind will hold more chill than it does at present.

I absolutely love the changing of the seasons - it keeps me grounded, knowing there is some rhyme and reason and things do go on.

I have the latest James Patterson book - "10th. Anniversary" the tenth book in the Women's Murder Club Series and I am really enjoying it - I felt that his recent stand alone novel "Toys" wasn't worth finishing, so my faith is restored in his work with this one.  I love the character Lindsay Boxer and at times thought I would have a new dog - a Boxer and I would call her "Lindsay", but that isn't going to happen as I am too unreliable to make a commitment to a pet.

A big week ahead for me - blood tests early in the week preparatory to admission to Flinders on Thursday for that ERCP and change of the stent.  I don't want to go but I take that as a good sign because when I was so very ill I couldn't wait to get there.  I take this as a sign that I am indeed in much better health.

So on this Sunday morning, wherever you are in this troubled world, I wish you peace and calm.   I hope you are able to find a safe and quiet place where you can find some peace and refresh yourself ready to get back into your life again.

I hope your problems ease and that you find some of your joy again and that life returns to "normal" for us all.  Whatever "normal" may be.

I wish you "sunshine in your shadows" * and joy and peace. I hope that you can find some warmth and friendship and the love you deserve.

Love and hugs,

* Thank you Helen for this phrase it is lovely.