(Al Jolson singing April Showers)
Good Morning and welcome to a damp little corner of the world - showers rather than steady rain. I woke early and by the time I came outside the dawn had broken and I was able to view a very bruised sky - all blotchy and all purple and blue. Heavy clouds cover my world this morning, but as I type the sun is peeping through - it is really beautiful. I love April showers and on this Wednesday they make me smile. My cat is walking and shaking her paws because she doesn't like wet feet.
The birds are quiet this morning and I wonder if that is the sign that there is a storm on the way - I like storms and used to wake my children, wrap them in blankets at the window to watch the storms - usually with a cup of hot chocolate. They were winter storms not those of autumn and it is lovely for me that both my girls really enjoy storms.
This morning I am off to spend time with Grace and Henry (6 and almost 4) and I am excited about it - I shall be drawing, playing and nurturing the child in me.
I love mornings which seem to me to hold the promise of a new start each day - I love the world waking and revealing herself to me and I particularly like Wednesdays when I can add another week to my post transplant life - 68 weeks today and this morning my thoughts have been with my Donor's wife - while it is a celebration for me - for her it marks a much different day for her. Whoever you are, wherever you are I send my love and care to you and more than that I send my gratitude because you allowed organ donation to take place and I live because of that decision. I think of this lady very often and wonder how she is doing on her own and I hope she has the support of her family.
I have given lots of thought to how I would react if she were to ever want to meet me - it would be a difficult time for her and I would find it strange, but I would certainly go ahead with it as it may well help both of us. I would love to be able to say "Thank you" face to face. If it never happens then I will understand that for her it may well to just too hard. On these days of High Days and Holidays such as Christmas and Easter - I am sure she misses him and my thoughts are winging their way to her wherever she is.
I come to this Wednesday morning with a thankful heart - I have a thankful heart on most days, but Wednesdays are special to me - life is special to me and I urge each one of you reading this page to look at your life - see the things that you are thankful for and affirm your attitude of gratitude. Take your life in both hands and live it to the full. Enjoy the world around you and smell and taste life.
I enjoy these days when the earth is damp and rich brown in colour - after rain the colours seem so much more intense and beautiful - my special rose is still blooming and I have a bloom on my desk and I can smell the fragrance (in spite of the toast I nearly burned). Mornings are beautiful - coffee, toast, a fragrant rose and the opportunity to write to you all. Life is good.
Easter plans seem to be forming for me - what had seemed to be an empty canvas is now starting to be filled in - dinner on Thursday, a movie and dinner on Friday and breakfast on Sunday, some shopping for a friend on Saturday - so that leaves only the Monday without plans. Be still and let it happen and it did. Earlier in the week I thought I had a blank canvas of five days and now I have plans for four of them. As I said - Life is good.
I hope the sun is shining in your little corner of the world and you are enjoying planning your Easter break with your family and friends. Take special care and try to find some time for you - I have books to read and know that I will find time for reading and some sewing or craft things. Not planning any specific things - just letting the days come and see what happens. An open heart and an open mind.
Thank you for visiting and reading "The Musings from My Heart" and I send love and care to you whatever time of day it is for you when you read this epistle.
(Linda)
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