Wednesday, December 28, 2011

WEDNESDAY @ 104 WEEKS AND CHASING SHADOWS


Good Afternoon from Adelaide - and it is heating up for a long hot spell but this is Australia and this is summer so we have to deal with it.

Today is a celebration of 104 weeks post transplant for me - two years (by date it will be Friday) and this will be the last time I post about the number of weeks - I have made it and I am well and happy.    I am not marking my diary with the number of weeks and am just going to let them happen.  Thank you to everyone who has followed the weekly epistle about my journey - the time is now right to let it go.  There will be no family get together for the occasion, I have been guided by my children and my friend - to believing that by doing this I am taking them back to a dark place where there is unhappiness and sadness.

I don't wish to do this - so I am coming out of the shadows and into the sun and letting my girls fly free - they will remember and acknowledge the day, but that's all it needs to be.,   I thought it was good to celebrate and remember but what I have been doing is taking them back to a painful time and that is wrong - so fly free and celebrate every day of my life with me.

"No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
nothing can harm you -
my words will
warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you..."

How blessed I am to have this promise and to go on celebrating every day of my life knowing that there is someone who loves me enough to be all those things to me.    Thank you.

So on this special day - I am chasing the shadows and standing in the full sunlight and not seeing the shadow I cast,  for that is behind me.

I have been a little unwell today and spent lots of the time sleeping - I guess you get that with "tinselitis" and a collection of foods that I will know better and leave alone in future.

Have a wonderful day and dance on the wind, splash in puddles - celebrate the pure joy of living.

Love and hugs and thanks for visiting the Musings of My Heart - a heart that is a little wiser and more content today.

4 comments:

Joe said...

Yes, your time has arrived. We need to go forward in love and light! But let us remember that where we go, our shadow goes. We respect it and acknowledge it. But we live in the light of possibilities, in the light of love, in the light of friendship, in the light of family and in the light of our donor's spirit. What more could we ask for. We are complete!

Linda J. said...

Beautiful words thank you Joe - long may your guiding light shine for me!!!

ladychiara said...

Linda it has been a privilege to share your journey through your blog. I hope that letting go brings you and your family the deepest of peace.May there always be sunshine in your shadows - I know there will be because the light you have shining inside of you burns so brightly and it touches everyone who is lucky enough to know you.Go forth into this new part of your journey with courage, joy and always love.
Helen xxx

Linda J. said...

Helen - thank you for your lovely words and please continue the journey with me - it will be different and I hope to Sparkle and Shine. I have been given a wonderful gift of life, but taking my family back to a dark place was wrong - I know that thanks to the most amazing man who has shared his journey with me and taken my hand and guided me.

"No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
nothing can harm you -
my words will
warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you..."

This is his promise to me - how can I fail?

there will be sunshine Helen I know that. Thank you - love and hugs,
Linda. xxxx